As the eldest daughter to narcissistic parents, I didn't realize how heavily parentified I was as a child. How emotionally responsible I was for my mother and how my family only really leaned on me because it was convenient for them. It was heart breaking.
And as a Human Design Projector and an empath, they never tried to understand why I was so different from them. They just wanted me to work hard and "succeed" so they could benefit from it. And I had enough.
I was also conditioned to believe that having money was wrong, and that was keeping me broke and with a broke b*tch mindset. Money gives me access to services I enjoy (hello housekeeper and laundry service) and it allows me to take vacations and live in the fullest expression of myself. I was tired of pretending that I was "bad" for wanting it.
And so for an entire year, I practiced different deconditioning and reprogramming methods that allowed me to heal substantially (I'm still a work in progress), and I knew that even though my life's work is rooted in coaching others, my focus needed to be on the immediate epidemic of eldest daughter syndrome.